If only all former prisoners, regardless of their social backgrounds, would be as repentant as Paris Hilton, and if only such show of repentance is genuine, then thereâ€™s still hope for goodness to prevail in this world.
But the problem is that those are two mighty â€œifsâ€ that look more surreal than real.
Paris Hilton looks elegant and serene as she is interviewed by Larry King on CNN.
In her first televised interview since leaving jail, a demure Paris told CNNâ€™s Larry King on Wednesday that she would never again drink and drive and that her time in jail was â€œa time-out in life.â€
Okay, give her the benefit of the doubt.
She said even though sheâ€™s an Aquarius and â€œweâ€™re social people,â€ her time behind bars taught her â€œthereâ€™s a lot more important things in lifeâ€ than partying.
Oh, did she finally realize that? Hopefully, the â€œmore important thingâ€ other than partying for her is not shagging in bed with some dude â€“ and having it filmed as well.
â€œIâ€™m frankly sick of it,â€ Paris said, with loose, re-blonded locks and camera-ready makeup. â€œIâ€™ve been going out for a long time now. Yeah, itâ€™s fun, but itâ€™s not going to be the mainstay of my life anymore.â€
She said her incarceration was â€œa very traumatic experienceâ€ that inspired a â€œjourneyâ€ of self-discovery that she intends to continue. The world will see a new Paris Hilton, she said.
â€œIâ€™m glad it happened in a way because itâ€™s changed my life forever,â€ she said. â€œI feel stronger than ever and, I donâ€™t know, I feel like this is a lesson in disguise.â€
The hotel heiress spent about 23 days in custody before she was sprung Tuesday.
She said she now plans to use her fame to bring attention to social causes rather than the newest Hollywood nightspot. â€œI feel like being in the spotlight, I have a platform where I can raise awareness for so many great causes and just do so much with this instead of superficial things like going out,â€ she said. â€œI want to help raise money for kids and for breast cancer and multiple sclerosis.â€
Hilton said a big misconception about her is that she lives off her familyâ€™s money.
â€œI completely disagree with that,â€ she said. â€œI work very hard. I run a business. Iâ€™ve had a book on The New York Times best-sellers list. Iâ€™m on the fifth season of my TV show. I did an album. I do movies.â€
The media has exaggerated her party-girl image, she said, telling King twice sheâ€™s never taken drugs and does not have a drinking problem.
Oh really? Never did drugs before? But who is this on the picture below smoking what looked like grass? Just a Paris look-alike?
Asked why she never tried to correct inaccurate reports of partying and drug use, Hilton said, â€œIâ€™m telling you right now so I put a stop to it.â€
Alone in her cell for 23 hours a day, Hilton devoted herself to reading, writing and thinking. She said she made plans to help her fellow inmates and imagined ways to be â€œa more responsible role model.â€
â€œI feel like God does make everything happen for a reason,â€ she said. â€œAnd it gave me, you know, a time-out in life just to really find out what is important and what I want to do, figure out who I am.â€
Educated in Roman Catholic schools, Paris said sheâ€™s â€œalways been religiousâ€ and â€œalways had a sense of spirituality but even more so after being in jail.â€
She bought a Bible from the jail commissary and read it daily, she said. But asked to name her favorite passage, she smiled and looked away. â€œI donâ€™t have a favorite,â€ she said.
Ah ok, no favorite passage. Or may be she couldnâ€™t remember a thing of what she read?
At various points during the interview, Hilton read excerpts from her jailtime journals, beginning each passage with a heavy sigh. She wrote about being at a crossroads, characterizing it as â€œneither a downfall nor a failure, but a new beginning,â€ and about her â€œcompassion for those I left behind at the prison.â€
â€œI want to help set up a place where these women can get themselves back on their feet,â€ she read. â€œI know I can make a difference and hopefully stop this vicious circle of these people going in and out of jail.â€
Hilton said she suffers from claustrophobia and attention deficit disorder, for which she takes medication. She said sheriffâ€™s officials released her to home confinement after just three days because of claustrophobia and anxiety and panic attacks.
After a judge ordered her back to jail, Hilton said she coped by meditating and reading letters from fans. But she still had nightmares of â€œsomeone trying to break into my cell and hurt me.â€
â€œJust the whole idea of being in jail is really scary,â€ she said. â€œI hate to be alone so that was really just hard for me in the beginning.â€
When asked about the party crowd she hangs with, including Britney Spears, Lindsay Lohan and her reality TV co-star Nicole Richie, Hilton said â€œeverybody makes mistakes.â€
Oh, letâ€™s see what Britney and company have to say about this. Paris calling them â€œmistakesâ€ in effect?
Parisâ€™ post-jail appearance on CNNâ€™s â€œLarry King Liveâ€ drew about 3.2 million viewers, nearly triple the showâ€™s average audience.